An Unlikely Couple.

Adela was a big woman. She was born big, she said. She had no idea whether or not this was true but, as she had no mother to ask, she assumed it to be so. Big people are generally big babies, she reasoned. At thirty-two she had got used to her size and, although she certainly wouldn't object to being miraculously transformed in to a delicate and petite little lady, she no longer worried about it.

She turned slowly in front of the mirror, pulling her tummy in as tightly as she could and straightening her jacket over the plain, dark green skirt. In doing so she puffed her chest out and her small breasts protruded very slightly between the lapels. At six feet tall she had worn flat shoes since she had finished growing when she was fifteen or so; her feet were a size nine and even if she had wanted to wear high heels she would not have been able to for the choice was very limited. She was not fat, she was just big. She had the large bone structure of a man and her hands, though the finger nails were carefully painted pearly pink, were like hams, big and strong and confident, exactly like her father's.

There was, however, a quiet beauty to her, especially there, behind the eyes. She had been told this several times and could see it herself for although her lashes were not long, nor her eyes large, there was a depth to the velvet brown colour, a liveliness and a shining that, she knew, made her lovely. She always wore a little make-up - just mascara and a touch of eye shadow, a hint of pale lipstick and, of course, some blusher, for she had a sallow skin that tanned quickly in the summer to a rich dark gold. She twisted her head this way and that in front of the mirror, examining the short pony tail and the effect of the amber high light she had just used.

Adela had started making her own clothes when she was a teenager, dashed out with surprising ease on an electric sewing machine that her father had bought her one Christmas. She had learnt that making her own things was by far the quickest, easiest and cheapest way of by-passing the XL counters in the shops and, as a result, she boasted a wardrobe packed full of smart - if not colourful - garments.

She had once asked her father about her size, several years ago, when he seemed in a good mood. Although he was never in fact in a bad mood, it was difficult to catch him in a good one.

"Your birth weight?" he had replied rhetorically. "Well, I dunno. You was fit and well, thassall."

The clear and gutteral remains of his Polish accent were heavily littered with London jargon and East End Grammar. He sat at the kitchen table, where he always sat, his elbows on the plastic cloth, rubbing one hand lightly over his five o'clock stubble. He had a habit of tilting a little on his chair and many a chair had been flung out after only a couple of years' use because of the weight of the big Pole on it, as he tilted back and forth, always causing the rear legs to crack and then break. He was an untidy man but allowed his only child to clean and tidy-up around him, tut-tutting as she went and nagging at him to at least take his boots off. He couldn't really see the point in all her cleaning and wiping and washing, but was vaguely aware that it would be a dull old apartment with no woman in it, wedged as it was between two large buildings just off the main road. He didn't think about it but, had he thought about it, would have been glad of the flowers Adela put on the table, and the smell of beeswax, and the glasses and tumblers all lined up neatly on the shelf.

Adela often tried to picture her mother, even now, after all these years. They seemed an unlikely couple, her parents, the big rough Pole with his heavy jaw and gruff manner and the little Spanish dancer - for she had surely been a dancer - with her olive skin and small feet.

"Is there no photo, dad?" she asked, "a picture of me when I was a baby? Or a picture of my mother?"

"No, no, nothing."

"But when you got married, dad - surely you had a photo taken ?"

He shrugged his big shoulders. He never talked about Isabella and didn't like to be questioned about her.

"Aw ...... it was right after the war ..... difficult times ....."

"I just find it impossible that you seriously have no photos at all !!"

Adela found this almost insulting.

"I mean, surely your wedding and my birth were .... well, EVENTS ?"

Her father turned away and busied himself cleaning his boots for the factory in the morning. Even if his overalls were dirty - and they almost always were - he made sure his boots were clean. Something about a man having clean boots, he said.

Adela watched him silently. He was always doing something, head down, busy hands, at the kitchen table. Even when the telly was on he kept busy, repairing something or oiling something, and keeping just one eye on the programme.

"I'd just have liked to have seen a photo of my mother," said Adela, sighing heavily, "or of me when I was a baby. Most people have photos, you know. I don't imagine I look anything like my mother, do I ?"

"No, you don't. You look like your grandmother - my mother."

"A big Polish woman?" Adela asked, smiling encouragingly.

"A strong woman, a farm woman."

He was silent and Adela waited in case he said something else.

"It took five of us to carry her when we buried her," he added, his eyes fixing on the wall opposite as the memory flit through his mind.

"........And my mother .......?"

"She was small. Small and dark. Carried her by mesself when she died."

Adela knew that this had perhaps gone too far, and that darkness overcame him, the one she had feared as a child for it made him remote, like a stranger, as if he didn't love her any more or even want her anywhere near him. Far back in to her early childhood, as far back as she could remember, her father would sit engulfed in his own darkness, sometimes for an entire day and on in to the night. That her mother had died was bad enough, but that she had died when she was only two and could not remember her, was intolerable.

"Dad, I'm sorry ......" she began.

"S-okay," he said, placing his palms flat on the table in front of him, as though making a decision, "it's only nat'ral you'd want to know."

A bus going by made the window panes rattle and somewhere in the apartment below a child cried and a mother scolded, background sounds that they had both heard all these years, nothing changing except the varying seasons as they passed by outside the window.

"She was a pretty woman," he volunteered suddenly.

"Tell me about how you met," Adela almost whispered, afraid to spoil this.

"Humph! We met, thassall. Met in a queue. Queing up for bread. Rationing, you see."

"Were you all refugees in the queue?"

"Well, I dunno, do I? I was, she wasn't. Don't know about the others, do I?" He tilted his chair back and forth. "She - Isabella - your mother - come to England after the war. Said she wanted to better herself. Came with an aunt. Died, she did, the aunt - before you was born."

Well, that fugures, though Adela, fighting sarcasm. Couldn't possibly have a living relative, could I? Aloud she said:

"And did she better herself, my mother ? What did she do ?"

"Worked in a factory. Put handles on drawers. Didn't better hesself, no."

"Why not?"

He looked up suddenly and grinned.

"Married me, didn't she? Married me, then you was born."

"Was she ....." Adela was suddenly emabarrassed, "was she pleased to have me ........?"

"Course, course she was. We both was. Midwife come here. You was born over there." He jerked his head in the direction of his bedroom, at the big oak bed that had been there for as long as Adela could remember.

"Did she die there too?" Adela whispered.

"Yeh ..... she died there."

He suddenly started picking bits of mud and tar off his boots, using a small penknife, and the bits flicked on to a sheet of newspaper he had spread on the table. Silence filled the room. After a while Adela started peeling potatoes for their evening meal. Usually she would chat lightly - tell him what she was cooking , when they would eat, whether or not she was going out with her friends afterwards. He hardly ever answered and they sat at the table to eat, and they would watch the telly as they did so. At a loss for something to say, yet hoping perhaps he would say more himself, Adela tried to move quietly, almost as though she was afraid of jarring him. She had always, all her life, trodden carefully around him and his grief, very sensitive to his loneliness and his inability to start again without Isabella. Imagination had run riot when she was a girl, so that she pictured her mother as a stunning beauty and her death as a tragedy ....... but she was aware these days of feeling slightly cross about it all ...... it was high time to put an end to the awkwardness. She imagined that if they'd had relatives of some sort it would have been easier. Had she had an aunt she could have asked, or a grandparent ...... but there was only her father. They lived in a closed-in world of near silence; affectionate and happy enough, but quiet. He had never been a talker. He had some friends at work and he was part of a darts team. In recent months she had noticed that he had started to smarten-up a bit before going out, sometimes to the pub with his mate Jeff, sometimes elsewhere.  Once he even wore a tie. It was nice to see him taking care of himself a bit. He was never gone long and was frequently back in before her. He never asked where she went. She knew it was not lack of concern on his part; he just knew she was sensible and safe.

"Dad," Adela finally broke the silence, "there is something I want to talk to you about."

Sensing the importance of his daughter's remark, the big Pole put his knife down again and once more laid his palms flat on the table in front of him. He looked at her fondly, unable to guess what she wanted to discuss with him, but some inner parental instinct telling him it was about a man.

"Yes, Adela?" he asked.

"I've met a man," she said immediately, confirming his instincts.

"Well, that's good."

"That's why I wanted to know a bit more about my mother ....we have no family, do we? Id' like a family. Ricardo - that's his name - has a huge family. We'd like to have kids one day - soon, we hope." She spoke in a rush, having finally broached the subject. "We see each other every day, dad, he works in the hotel. He's a waitor. And guess what - he's Spanish!"

If this news shocked or upset him, her father didn't show it. He smiled very slightly, still watching her closely. He waited for her to say more.

"I'd like to invite him round," she ploughed on, "I'd like you to meet him. He's really nice, dad. He has eight sisters and one brother! Grandparents, uncles, aunts, and loads and loads of cousins. Mostly in Madrid, but several here. I've met lots of them."

"That's good," he said again.

"We've been seeing each other for over a year, dad. But I felt you wouldn't want me to ask him back here ...."

"No, no, that's OK, you go ahead and ask him back here, Adela".

Suddenly she felt like a schoolgirl. It seemed so silly now, after all those months of worrying about how he would take it, and now here he was perfectly all right about it.

"I was worried you'd be annoyed," again she spoke in a rush, wanting to say all the things she had kept to herself. "I badly want to get married and have children .... but I've been worried about leaving you ...."

"Ah! My lovely Adela!"

Her father's sudden exclamation startled her.

"Of course! Of course I want you to be married ......... but you never seemed to have man friends ........ I want grandchildren, lots of them!"

The tension went out of the air and they were both laughing. She hadn't seen him laugh like that for years, and even then only very rarely. He had laughed with her at the zoo once, and once when she was very little and he was getting her out of the bath. He was not a man prone to laughter.

"I'm really relieved. Ricardo - well, he's not like you. For a start he's really short."

"Short?"

"Yes, short. He's way shorter than I am. And way thinner. But it doesn't matter to us. We get along fine. We make an unlikely couple, but we get along fine."

"Well, that's all that matters," he said, "and I'm glad to hear you have a man in your life."

"I'd have told you ages ago,but you never asked," said Adela. "I mean, it got sort-of awkward somehow .... you assumed I was with girl friends ....." She breathed in deeply as if taking a gulp of fresh air. "Things will be different now. I shall introduce you. His family will love you.  We don't have to leave, you know, we could live here with you after we're married."

"Oh, no ....." he looked at the floor. "It would be best if we find you another apartment."

Adela was astonished.

"Dad! I wouldn't dream of just leaving you all alone ......!"

"Ah, Adela, my dear child. I will not be alone. You see, you have just assumed that I, when I go out, am with my men friends .....eh ?"

THE END.

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Extract from 'French Sand'

Maurice du Chazand was attracted, in his own dispassionate way, to the English woman, Melanie Hodges. He had heard that she was separated from her husband – also English, it appeared – probably for a native woman – some of these natives were very lovely – but he kept his distance for unless she was seriously separated and getting a divorce there was no point in becoming involved. He was, albeit in a passive sort of way, on the look-out for a wife. He had done six years in Africa, two in the Gilbert Islands and now had three years’ work in Noumea. After that his wish was to retire early – he would be forty-four next year – to his vineyards in the Medoc, preferably with a wife. Back in his little town of Lesparre he assumed Francine le Grand was still waiting and hoping he would marry her – and if the worst came to the worst, he would – ( but he had never really fancied those huge child-bearing hips or her jam-making mother) – for she would make a good faithful wife who would doubtless produce a couple of children, who was of good local stock (her father was Monsieur le Maire) and whom he had known since school days. In the meantime if he could meet a pretty young woman like Melanie Hodges, that would be so much better. He took it all very seriously. He most certainly didn’t want to grow old alone and – even though old age was still a long way off – all this needed careful consideration.

I am accustomed, he wrote to his brother, to an active social life, to an international entourage, to not only mixing with people from all over the world and all walks of life but also with all sorts of tastes and aspirations. I dread the thought of settling down with a woman who has no conversation and who knows nothing beyond cooking and coffee mornings. I would not be happy. Our dear Francine le Grand is most charming, very kind, but I would rather find something a little more exotic – or at least a little different.

You write, his brother replied, almost as though you are choosing a new car!

This was a coincidence for du Chazan had just had a car shipped over from France. It had cost him a small fortune for it was a new Citroen, pale beige in colour with good cream-coloured leather upholstery. It was smooth and stream-lined and after all those years in the Congo, where he drove only landrovers, and sometimes pretty rough ones at that, made a more than welcome change. On arrival in Noumea he had been disappointed to find that most cars on the island were imported from Australia, usually Holdens or sometimes big old American cars. Not that he was a car man, he told himself, but it was most satisfying to seat himself in the comfortable Citroen with its hydraulic suspension and clean lines.

So du Chazan watched the Hodges woman discreetly. He didn’t mind about the little boy – he was of no particular interest and seemed healthy and intelligent. Du Chazan made a few casual and polite enquiries here and there from the other employees of the Commission. The Hodges woman had been abandoned, which was better than an agreed separation for it put her in the “right” somehow, and there was a rumour that another child was involved, not hers.

Sitting with his coffee on the Commission verandah, du Chazan often saw Melanie flit back and forth out of Hurst’s office. Fairly small (which suited him for he was not a big man) with long dark hair back-combed in to a chignon as was the fashion, she had pretty legs and occasionally he could glimpse a centimetre or two of lace petticoat under the full starched skirt. Something about her attracted him more than any other available woman in Noumea – and there were not many – and du Chazan settled back patiently to await the outcome.

His wait was brought to an abrupt end when the Hodges man was killed.

French Sand is a novel set in the South Pacific in the 1960s.

Catherine Broughton is a novelist, a poet and an artist. Her books are on Kindle and Amazon, or can be ordered from most big book stores and libraries. More about Catherine Broughton, to include her sketches and stories from all over the world, on http://www.turquoisemoon.co.uk 

Extract from 'A Call from France'

“A Call from France” by Catherine Broughton.

“How do you say un bouc in English?” asked Debbie.

“A ram,” I replied.

“And the moutons ?” chimed in Bernie

“Sheeps,” Max told him.

“Sheep,” I corrected him, “it is sheep, whether one or several of them.”

We looked over the domaine several times, wandering through the huge, dark, empty rooms and round the dilapidated gardens. An ancient stone wall, some two metres in height, surrounded the entire plot of land – three or four acres – crumbling away in places. Ivy grew in dark green leafy strands through the broken stones and in parts the stinging nettles and brambles were so high you couldn’t see the wall at all.

“The garden was once lovely,” Euan commented.

He indicated an old stone bench hidden by overgrown shrubbery.

“Somebody once loved this place,” he said.

Here and there were the wild remains of trimmed and shaped hedges, roses, flower beds, stone urns, decorative trees and shrubs of all sorts. Lilac and forsythia spread haphazardly across what used to be lawn, and there were huge clusters of irises and even some agapanthus – which I hadn’t seen growing wild since South Africa – and all the while the sheep wandered lazily around, chumping at the grass. Most of the shutters had fallen off, or were hanging dubiously. The sturdy iron gates had rusted. The entire place was heaped with fascinating ancient features, from the wells and iron hand-pumps in the grounds, to the weedy remains of a vineyard. There were a couple of massive ancient stone sinks, dating back to the 1600s, lying in the bushes, clearly flung out during a “modernization” period before World War Two. The entire place was hugely romantic and we liked the idea of being near the sea – barely three miles away – and nearer Royan and Oleron, places that were lively if only in the summer. We both longed and longed for company and action of some kind.

“You really want to go back home,” Euan said, putting an arm over my shoulders.

“Yes, I do. I want to go home. But I don’t mind giving it one last shot. We’ve been here …” I counted, “ six years. I’d rather just pack up and go home, but if we can’t afford a house in England, this will do.”

“You could put up with a chateau in France, could you?” he asked, grinning.

I looked up at the crumbling building. The Chateau des Cypres. There was something about it that attracted us both. Only people like us could possibly take it on. There were several big old stone barns in varying forms of dereliction. Euan could turn his hand to any kind of DIY, anything at all.

Funnily enough I read an article at the hairdresser’s this morning about a house that had been renovated in Yorkshire and the writer (a woman) said “our friends thought we were mad to take it on”. Yet, by our standards, that house in Yorkshire was in perfect order.

The babes seemed happy with the move and it would also mean that they wouldn’t have to board at school because we were relatively close to Clion. We tried hard to not talk about “going home” in front of the babes, fearing it might upset them at some level. All three were so French in many ways.

“Come on, then!” Euan called out to the children, “time to go!”

“Ice-kweeem!” volunteered Bernie ..

“I expect so,” said Euan and helped him to strap himself in to the car. Debbie and Max turned away from the ram and sauntered towards us. I heard afterwards that you must never turn your back on a ram or a billy goat. He just calmly walked up behind Debbie and butted her in the back. With a cry of astonishment and alarm she fell forwards onto both knees, straight on to the stone path. I rushed forward.

“C’mon! Quick!” I grabbed her under the arms, frightened the ram was going to somehow attack. But he sauntered off back to the sheep almost as though he had his nose in the air. Debbie wailed and wailed.

“Max! Get in to the car!” I yelled, still frightened.

“It’s all right, it’s all right,” Euan, ever calm, came over and helped Debbie onto her feet.

“Are you hurt?” I asked.

She wailed and wailed.

“Debbie!” I said more sternly, “we need to know if you are hurt.”

“My back! My knees!”

I turned to Euan.

“She went down with quite a whack,” I said.

Debbie hobbled between us to the car where she eased herself in to her seat, still crying loudly. We looked at her knees. She had been able to get up and move with no problem so we judged there was nothing broken. The knees weren’t even scratched.

“She’s shocked,” I said.

“C’mon Baby,” Euan cajoled her, “it’s not as bad as all that. I expect that was a nasty fright, but you’re not hurt.”

The wailing continued.

“Cry quietly,” I said to her in desperation.

Catherine Broughton is a novelist, a poet and an artist.  Her books are available from Amazon or Kindle or can be ordered from most big stores and libraries.  For more of Catherine’s work, to include her sketches and entertaining blogs, go to http://www.turquoisemoon.co.uk

Extract from 'Saying Nothing'

Then an overwhelming anger consumed him.

The guests at the funeral had all gone and Prisca and one of the maids were quietly tidying things away.  Marie-Carmen lay on her bed in the darkness, too tired to cry.  Ignacio went into the garden where it was cool.  As he walked away from the house, down the path towards the little lake, as he passed the peacocks and the tall stately trees, he filled up with a fury that made him clench his fists and grind his teeth.

He had tried so hard.  He knew right from wrong; he had fought to keep a balance.  He had protected Miguel and his daughter yet had never compromised the police.  He was clever and quick, yet Miguel was dead.

The feeling of anger remained with him throughout the night, and, for the first time ever, he had no wish to make love to his wife.  The anger was still there in the morning.  It remained with him for months on end until el Mdrino’s son died.  For a few hours he had felt the euphoric satisfaction of revenge. Then he felt nothing.

But like him, Marie-Carmen didn’t want to talk about the past.  She watched the shadows flit over her husband’s face and he, in turn, saw the memories of pain and loss through her dark eyes.  He would never let her know the truth.   An involuntary shudder ran down his spine and he was for a few seconds completely unable to shake away the vision of the murder, the blood, the scream.

Marie-Carmen squeezed his hand again.

“Come on, eat!” she said with urgency in her voice.

The giant prawns were succulent and Ignacio forced the conversation onto other matters.  Marie-Carmen wanted to go shopping in Madrid; Malaga was useless, she said.  She’d got no clothes –  why do women always say they have no clothes?  And suddenly he wanted to see her without any clothes, as she was last night, dark hair spread out over the pillow, white thighs, legs open to receive him, laughing up at him.

“Watch me come!” she had said, “watch me die!”

*****

 Catherine Broughton is a novelist, a poet and an artist. Her books are available on Amazon and Kindle (and other e-book formats) or can be ordered from most libraries and book shops.  More about Catherine Broughton, to include her entertaining blogs and short stories from around the world, on http://www.turquoisemoon.co.uk

An extract from my novel - 'Saying Nothing'

Instinctively she knew that she must say nothing.

Seconds passed.  She smelled sweat, wine, coarse tobacco.   The pavement seemed to move.  A man was pushing her, a rough-skinned hand over her mouth.  She lashed out, stiffened, flailed her arms uselessly, tried to scream, tried to defend herself against something that was totally alien .… she had no idea who or what …. or where, or why …… there was something horribly wrong here.  Somebody, something, was horribly wrong  ……..   she tried bite the hand that was over her mouth.

She felt herself pushed in to a vehicle, landed heavily on her knees, attempted again to to cry out, and she sensed the hot night air, the stars, and heard – foolishly – a bird in a tree, making song in the Spanish night.  

“Cierra la puerta!”

Movements.  A car door.  Men shuffling.  Terror was like a cold cloth around her neck and mouth.

She realized she must be in the back of a van. She heard the engine, she felt the gear change and the picking up of speed.  Had she gone mad ?  She couldn’t think.   Shock made her stupid.   She searched around frantically in her mind, convinced she had got something wrong somewhere, this was a joke ……….. and yet she knew that it wasn’t.

What the ………. ?!

As her eyes grew accustomed to the darkness she saw that there were two other occupants.  They sat silently opposite her, watching her.   Two men, obscure in the darkness and smelling of the wine and tobacco she’s been aware of on the pavement.  They hung on to the side of the van as it heaved and rattled on the uneven road, their faces non-committal, black eyes, unshaven jaws, an odor of sweat about them, expressionless.

She realized she was neither bound nor gagged.

“ What d’you want with me ?”

Her voice shook as she spoke.  The brown eyes looked at her, lips closed.

Catherine Broughton is a novelist, a poet and an artist. Her books are available on Amazon and Kindle, or can be ordered from most big book stores.  ”The Man with Green Fingers”, a novel set in Cyprus is her best seller.  More about Catherine, to include her entertaining blogs from around the world, on http://www.turquoisemoon.co.uk

Wine in the Medoc

Wine Festival in the Medoc
By Catherine Broughton
written for “Food and Drink” magazine 1997.

On a swelteringly hot August day Bruce and I, accompanied by George, our Great Dane, left the cool refuge of our campsite under the tall seaside pines, and made our way to a wine festival at Lesparre.
We have been in France nearly nine years, we said, and we still don’t know anything about wine except that we like to drink it.

Lesparre is a fairly uninteresting little town situated in the central Medoc, north of Bordeaux. The countryside in generally flat and uneventful and there are no architectural features of any note. For many hundreds of years this area was accessible only for those travelling north out of Bordeaux, or by boat from Blaye, for the east of the Medoc is separated from the rest of France by the Gironde estuary and is cut off at its northernmost tip near the Pointe de Grave at Royan. To the west lies the Atlantic Ocean.

In the sixties a ferry service was installed from Blaye, and another from the Pointe de Grave started soon afterwards. This opened the area up and it is now a successful and accessible tourist location, boasting mile upon mile of golden beaches and some of Europe’s biggest dunes.

The elite holiday resort of Cap Ferret lies at the southernmost tip, and the coast meanders up through sweet-smelling pine forests, dotted with naturist beaches, fanned by the Atlantic and drenched in an unbroken sun.
The Medoc is essentially a plain which extends some 80kms (50 miles), yet despite its isolated position it has for centuries produced some of the best Bordeaux red wines. The grapes are grown especially along a strip of gravely soil and the most famous wines are the Chateau Latour, the Chateau Mouton-Rothschild, also Chateau Lafitte and Chateau Margaux.

The word “chateau” has nothing to do with the building, for it can often be a simple farmhouse or even an ugly warehouse, with no resemblance at all to our romantic idea of a chateau. It is frequently an old monastery, or on the site of an old monastery or similar. This is because in medieval days monks tended the vines due to the need for wine during mass. It was not until fairly recently, during the early 1700s when bottles and corks started to be used, that wine could be kept for long periods. And with the keeping of it evolved the connoisseur.

The heat was such that we walked on the shady side of the street. George hung his head, uncomfortable in his black coat, and lolloped along beside us. There was almost nobody about and the grey stone buildings sweltered under the blasting light. A few rows of limp flags hung across the streets and a dozen or so signs indicating that there was a wine festival on stood propped at the side of the pavement. Even the usually essential (and undeniably dreadful) voice on the loudspeaker was missing…it was so hot that this crucial aspect of French festivity had gone off for a doze.

The stands lined either side of the little Place du Marche, the wine growers talking quietly among themselves, a couple of dogs stretching in the shade, Lesparre church standing imposingly at the far end. A handful of hot spectators commented on the size of George and asked if it was okay to touch him; a few tasted the wine.
The first stand was the Chateau Hourbanon which boasted thirteen hectares of prime vine country just south of the town. The grapes, the sign told us, are carefully picked, still done by hand during the vendange, from fine old plants and then transformed into wine in the good old way in oak caskets in dark cellars.

“It’s too hot,” said the young Hughes Delayet, owner of the Chateau Hourbanon, “nobody wants to taste wine. Everybody is on the beach.”

Well, we want to taste some, we told him.

Hughes poured out a couple of glasses.

“This is a Chateau Hourbanon ’95,” he told us, “which was a very good year. The climate was excellent, plenty of sun and adequate rain. A ’95 wine will be at it’s best in five years’ time, though it is also very good to drink now.”

Indeed it was.
He then poured another.

“This one is a ’93,” he explained, “and you will see the difference. It is a good wine but it will not keep more than a year or two and it is best drunk now.”

“Was 1993 a bad year then?” I asked.

Hughes threw up his hands in horror.

“Madame!” he exclaimed, “in this business we never say a bad year! We say a small year- une petite annee.”

I stood corrected and sipped the wine. Following his example we swilled the wine round the glass, grasping the glass by the stem as he did. We had learnt that holding the glass by the bowl is the first sign of a person who knows nothing about wine, for the heat from ones fingers can alter the delicate balance in the temperature of the liquid. Holding his glass up to the light Hughes explained about the robe as the wine swept round the sides of the glass. True enough, the ’95 wine left a hue of deep scarlet and the ’93 did not.
Ah-ha! We said.

We did not seem to be expected to spit the wine out though we noticed to our consternation that a couple of others were doing so at a nearby stand. With a little “ttch” sound the spit landed neatly into a large copper bowl.

“Are you going to be all right?” Bruce whispered to me, “this heat and this wine-?”

“I’ll cope,” I replied, ready to taste a drop more.

“How does the Medoc wine compare to the Californian,” I asked, “or Australian?”

“Those are good wines,” replied Hughes earnestly, though we all know that no true Frenchman ever thinks that anything other than French wine (or French food for that matter) is any good. “They are designed, however, to correspond with the tastes of the clients, which will vary from country to country and also as fashion dictates. The Medoc is less technical; it has a quality which it keeps at all costs regardless of fashion or of the country to which it is being sent.”

I listened with interest. He explained the growing process and I was surprised to learn that vines are often forty or fifty years old, and can last up to eighty years or more. The quality of the wine improves each year as the vine grows older. Although the manufacture of each individual wine may vary slightly it follows a fairly standard pattern: the grapes are crushed and this produces “grape must” which then ferments in vats usually with additives to prevent the wrong kind of yeast growing. The temperature has to be carefully controlled, which is why wine is usually in cellars where the temperature remains constantly cool. Fermentation takes some time with the “free-run” wine drawn off during the process and before it is “racked” which is when it is separated from the yeast sediment. It is stored on its side to keep the cork moist and must be protected from light, vibrations and extremes in temperature.

“How about extremes in temperature if the grapes are still on the plant?” I asked.

Hughes explained that a bad frost can ruin a crop for many years. Conversely an excessively hot summer will only improve things providing the plants have enough water. In the old days straw used to be stacked up around the plants to keep the frost off, and some vineyards would even light small fires at odd intervals to keep the plants from freezing.

“I can remember as a small child hearing the alarm bell ringing in the night to warn the chateau that there was a frost,” Hughes told us.

One last thing fascinated me.

“Why do we often see rose bushes in with the vines?” I asked.

“In the days of the Crusades,” he told me, “a man returned from the Holy Land to find his wife in bed with his best friend. The man was so angry that he killed both his wife and his friend and threw their bodies out of the window into the vineyard below. In the morning the bodies had gone but two rose bushes grew there instead. That is why we plant roses.”
“And the real reason?” I asked, smiling at his quaint story.

Hughes poured a little more ’95.

“It is because rose bushes and vines suffer from the same diseases but the rose manifests the disease much sooner. This way we can tell when a vine is likely to need treatment.”

Less romantic but logical.

“Would your dog like some water?” asked Hughes suddenly.

“Well, yes, thanks – you would wouldn’t you George?”

“George? An excellent name! It was my father’s name.”

“Ah – and was he a wine producer too?”

“Oh no,” said the owner of the Chateau Hourbanon, “he was a dentist.”

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As I drove out one frozen morning...

Sometimes I wonder if I unwittingly contributed to his death.

It is possible, even likely, that he died. I’ll never know, of course, but if I lived nearer I’d probably go to the factory and see what I could find out. There’s an element of guilt somewhere there. The memory of him comes back to me at those odd moments we all experience, when we suddenly feel very aware of ourselves and of our tininess in the universe. How fragile we are! How important we are to ourselves and how miniscule in the general arrangement of things.

It was very early, a couple of hours before dawn, one bitterly cold December morning. Winter temperatures in central France can drop very low. It was -20.C. My feet crunched loudly on the frozen and brittle grass as I strapped our three children into the car, and by the time I had loaded our suitcases and bags my toes had gone completely numb. I’d left the engine running to de-frost the windscreen and to warm-up the car but I nevertheless went around spraying the windscreen with Anti-Gel, all the while shushing the children to make less noise. The baby slept.

I reversed, turned, and eeked out of our drive, hunched forward over the steering wheel, willing the baby to remain asleep and trying to feel positive about the long drive ahead of me. I was very tense: unaccustomed to driving on the wrong side of the road, unused to motoring at night and unfamiliar with the route, I also had the responsibility of the children and black ice to contend with.

I manoeuvred the car through the village; all was totally dark and silent, just a faded street lamp here and there. As the French say ‘pas une souris’- not even a mouse. The stone houses huddled bleakly around the little War Memorial, interspersed with small dark trees petrified in the cold. Heading east out of the village I picked up the ‘departemental’ just before Chateauroux. It was an essentially straight road, skirting Chateauroux, direct north to Tours, then motorway to Paris, the periphherique, then motorway to Calais. Dover was 10 hours’ drive away. I tried to not grit my teeth.

There was almost nobody about as I neared Chateauroux. I vaguely noticed a factory opening, its windows and doors glaring squares of yellow on the huge black hulk. Smoke belched out of a chimney. A couple of cars were parking, their headlights fanning the obscure car park. A road sign indicated another three kilometres into Chateauroux. The children had already dozed off again, clutching in their laps the breakfast picnics they’d excitedly prepared the previous evening.

As I rounded the bend, I saw him. My headlights caught him clearly just as I happened to glance that way. It has remained like a black-and-white photograph, etched onto my memory, frozen in time, all these years. He was lying on the grass verge to my right, some drunkard playing the fool and flailing one arm in the air. He shouted something. It can’t have lasted more than a second. ‘Heavens’, I thought, ‘it’s pathetic’. ‘I bet he’s been out boozing all night. Revolting man.’

Dawn crept steadily up from the east, a silvery light slowly gripping onto the edge of the earth, like a child reaching across the table for a sweet. The land is very flat between Chateauroux and Tours, almost two hundred kilometres of open field and low, grey little villages. The frozen world glittered weakly as night faded, lights went on in houses, and cars appeared on the black roads, like ants out of nowhere. Suddenly there were a few people around and the small sounds of early morning of a dog barking and a mother scolding her child.

The road led straight through these small towns and I followed it monotonously on. The children woke and ate their picnics, the baby held his own bottle. The sky-line of Tours appeared, a welcome aura of civilization, and we stopped to stretch our legs and fill up with petrol. When we hit the road again the morning was in full swing with brilliant sunshine and a bright blue sky. Traffic jams around Tours brought me neatly back out of my frozen night-time world; the children were remarkably good. Another two hundred kilometres to Paris.

It didn’t occur to me for several hours, sometime before Calais. That man! What have I done?! How could I have just driven by?! Of course he wasn’t drunk! He had been hit by a car; he had fallen on the ice; he was calling out for help. I tried to reason with myself: only a drunk would be fooling around like that in the middle of the night. But it wasn’t the middle of the night, it was just before dawn. He was a factory worker. He had been hit or had slipped and had lain there in sub-zero temperatures and probably wasn’t found till broad daylight. He had raised his hand towards me, begging for help, and I, smug in my middle-class security, had just driven on…

Well, I don’t think about it very often and that feeling of guilty shock I experienced at Calais didn’t last long. I momentarily wondered wildly if I should pull in somewhere and call the police, or what I could have done, had I stopped to help… there were no mobiles phones then and I had three little children ….
It’s just one of those pictures one has etched into one’s memory, something that comes back to me from time to time, miniscule in the general arrangement of things.

Published in Church magazine 2001.

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The Precious Child

Klara carried the pail of milk across the yard and in to the kitchen. Her steps were heavy. The creamy white liquid swirled around in the timber bucket. The smell made her nauseous, but then throughout all her pregnancies, everything seemed to make her nauseous. Whether this was a good sign or a bad one, she had no idea. All she knew was the terrible pain and sweat of childbirth, only to have the baby die.

Her only living child, having lost three babies, was Olphus. Dear, sweet, precious precious child, he was playing outside right now, and she could hear him chatting to himself as he ran around amid the chickens and the ducks.

She had taught herself to not think about the two little ones she had lost to diphtheria. And sweet little Otto to ….. what had killed him ? He seemed healthy enough when he was born, yet he lived only a few days. The familiar tightening sensation in her throat made its way around her neck, like an iron grip, for there is no grief like the grief of a mother. This baby, however, like his good strong brother Olphus, would be fine. She prayed for it to be so.

She was not one to lament nor to complain, and her grief and fear were worked out of her as she scrubbed and wiped and chopped and cooked, but most of all as she watched her little boy grow. She went over to the open door and stood leaning against the wall for a while in the sunshine. In the far distance she could just pick out the sky-line of Linz and, beyond the town, Postingberg Mountain. In the foreground were flat fields, and a narrow road leading to their little farm. Parked to one side of the track was a cart and horse which she knew belonged to the vet, Herr Keppler. Frau Morrin in the village had told her that the vet was going to get one of those new things – an auto – and that may or may not be true. She honestly didn’t care. The calf was not growing as it should. More expenses. Less money.

Klara sighed heavily. She could hear Olphus round at the side of the house, involved in some solitary game.

She placed the pail on the table and, using a finger, she picked out a few bits of straw and flicked them on to the table.

She was a tidy woman and kept the small farmhouse as clean and neat as she could with her limited possessions and money. Sitting on the stool to rest for a moment, she shuffed off her clogs and rested her elbow on the scrubbed oak surface of the table. The hem of her dress was damp from where it had trailed on the floor as she milked the cow, and her fingers were red from hard work. She so wished that her husband had stayed in his job at border control. He had set off every morning clean, returned clean – if bad-tempered – and had brought home a regular pay packet. This farming idea was madness, and both of them were constantly exhausted.

“No more children, my husband ….” She had tried to reason with him. “I cannot bear it. We have our son, let us be happy and grateful for that.”

She never used the pet-name Olphus in front of her husband if she could help it.

But he didn’t listen. Did these men ever listen ? When they have their man-needs, nothing stops them, does it ? They don’t care – he certainly didn’t – about her pain. She felt the sudden tiny movement, the first kick of the new baby. Just live, my little one, she prayed, her hand on her swelling tummy, just live, that’s all I ask of you. The century was drawing to a close ..… another six years and it would be the year 1900. Surely that was an omen ? Surely it meant that her children born now, hereafter, would be well and live and not succumb to the illnesses of babies. This new little one, she was sure of it, would see the century turn.

She got up and went to the door. Olphus was running – did he ever tire ?! – between the sheds, a stick in his hand. He waved when he saw his mother.

“Would you like some milk?” she called out.

The child rushed over, his face red with exertion, and waited as his mother filled a wooden bowl with warm, frothing milk.

“Still warm from the cow,” he announced, and wiped the milky moustache off his face with his sleeve.

“Don’t go where I can’t see you,” Klara reminded him. “Keep away from the top field. Stay near the house.”

But Olphus was already at the other side of the yard. Klara rinsed her hands under the kitchen pump, recently and ingeniously installed indoors, in the kitchen, over a copious stone sink. Absently, she wiped her hands on her apron as she slipped back in to her clogs and went out to the vegetable patch. She was vaguely aware of Olphus still terrorizing the chickens.

In the vegetable patch she spent some thirty or forty minutes weeding, plucking unwanted greenery from between the carrots, and pulling up spring onions. The vegetables she wanted for the evening meal were flung in to a basket at her side, and she made her way steadily, her pregnancy not sufficiently advanced for the labour to create back ache, up each row and slowly, carefully, back again. She had never much liked the outdoors, but nonetheless took a pride in her vegetable patch. There was a slight breeze and it was pleasant pottering away. Olphus has fallen silent, clearly having tired of the fowl. She hoped he was reading. He was a clever boy. Very clever, actually. She smiled. She could hear birds, and country sounds and, for a while, she was relatively happy.

Back in her kitchen she washed her hands and prepared some carrots for the evening meal. Olphus did not come in again for his habitual slice of bread and cheese, but she supposed the milk had sufficed him. Out in the barn she filled a bucket with potatoes and carried them to the sink. She would bake them as they were in the fire. She usually lit the fire an hour or so before it got dark. Her eyes wandered to the sky where she could see the afternoon was well advanced. Her heart sank – and she felt guilty for it – when she realised that her husband would soon be in from the field. She hoped he didn’t bring the vet in with him but, in case he did, she tidied her hair and put on a clean apron.

It was as she was tying the apron that the silence struck her. She went to the door.

“Olphus?” she called out in to the yard.

He had been reading a good hour by now, if that was what he was doing. Little else kept him so quiet for so long. She turned and went to the bottom of the ladder and called up in to the loft.

“Olphus?”

At first she was not really worried. A little perplexed, perhaps, but not truly concerned. He was a noisy, energetic child, and his proximity was always abundantly clear – his shouting, or even singing (he sang very nicely), never out of ear shot. Klara took the pail of milk over to the churn. She then went outside to fetch in the washing.

“Olphus?” she called again.

Feeling slightly cross now, she shoved the basket of washing through the kitchen door and marched firmly around the shed, calling for her son as she did.

“Papa will be back soon!” she called. That would make him reappear hastily!

Panic was an enemy she fought. It would not be the first time she couldn’t find him. He was usually discovered deeply involved in some little farmhouse chore, or his nose in a book, or engrossed in a game. There were few other children for him to play with when he was not in school, but sometimes a lad from a neighbouring hamlet would saunter by. That was it. Of course. The naughty boys had almost certainly gone in to the woods. Once when Olphus had gone missing she had found both boys in a dug-out in the woods, playing cowboys and Indians. On another occasion she found him – he’d have been about three at the time – sitting in the rabbit hutch, an arm around one of the rabbits.

Klara’s husband returned just as it was getting dark, the vet with him. Dutifully Klara poured each man a glass of beer. Neither of them spoke to her and she started to light the fire. Her eyes kept wandering to the window where night would soon be closing in.

“Excuse me,” she said politely, and went outside again.

Both men nodded absently at her.

“Olphus!” she called. “Come on in now! Come and say guten abend to Herr Keppler!”

Her call was greeted by silence, and the silence started to weigh heavily on her. If she told her husband that the boy was missing she risked ridicule in front of the vet; and – worse – Olphus would be beaten by his father. She never held with the beatings. She walked briskly round the house and the outbuildings, calling as she went. It was possible he was now hiding knowing that he would get a beating as soon as the vet had gone. By now it was very dark, and Klara knew that, although her son was a tough little fellow, he would want his supper and the candlelight.

“Is that your son you are calling for, Klara?” asked the vet when she returned to the kitchen.

“Yes ….. yes – I cannot find him.” She tried to sound light-hearted and gave a nervous little laugh. She noticed the thunderous look on her husband’s face. Oh yes, poor little Olphus would be beaten all right.

“Has he been gone long?” asked the vet. He rose to his feet, looking intently at her.

“I mean, I don’t want to worry you, Klara, but the gypsies are about ……..”

“Du lieber gott!” Klara’s hand flew to her mouth. “He has been missing two or three hours now – I thought he was reading ……”

“You foolish woman!” thundered her husband. “You know the gypsies are here at this time of year!! First you let our children die, then you lose one!”

“Calm, my friend,” the vet put his hand reassuringly on the other man’s arm. “Becoming angry does not help. Do you have a lantern ? We should first check the grounds.”

The two men set off, the light from the small lantern swinging eerily in the darkness. Klara could sense her child’s fear, and he would be so frightened – frightened of his father, frightened of the dark – Lord, don’t let it be that the gypsies have taken him! Don’t let it be!

After some twenty minutes or so – the farm was not large – the vet came back in and announced that he was going down to the village to ask the policeman to go to see the gypsies. They were camped in the valley by Johannes-am, barely two miles away. On reflection, he explained to Klara, it would surprise him if they did indeed have the boy and remained in the area. More likely he was stuck up a tree.

By midnight five villagers had joined the search. Carrying their lanterns, they spread out across the fields and made their way slowly over to the woods, calling as they went. A half-moon hung in the dark sky, casting reflections on the shadows, and shadows within the dark recesses under the trees and by the copses. A fox barked. At around two in the morning three more villagers joined the search, and one went home. He nodded sadly at Klara as he left. She watched him retreat in to the dimness, and knew that something dreadful had happened to her precious precious child. The grief this time would surely be too much to bear.

“No ….. no ……. “ she cast about her for something to help the situation, somewhere obvious to look, something excellent to do ….. but her mind was blank and her heart was filled with a terrible, heavy dread. No, never, never had he been truly missing like this …….. She scurried aimlessly between the house and the yard, calling him. A light drizzle started and an ominous damp pervaded the night air. Clouds moved in over the moon and it was totally dark.

One by one the villagers retreated to their own homes. Klara’s husband returned, muddy and looking grim. He collapsed in the chair by the fire and kicked off his boots.

“You’re a stupid bitch,” he growled at her, “ a truly stupid bitch!”

“He’s a little boy …….. just a child ……….. six years old ……..” her voice broke and she struggled not to sob. “You can’t stop looking …….”

Sometime just before dawn Klara fell asleep, sitting there on the stool at the kitchen table. She slept for a half hour and was suddenly alert and awake. She had heard something. There was movement outside in the yard.

“Olphus ?!” she rushed to the door. But it was one of the villagers, Olaf, back to see if the boy had been found. He shook his head grimly.

He set off across the field to where there was an old well. His wife had suggested it. The well had not been used for a long time and, for safety, had been filled in with rocks years ago. But, his wife had pointed out, the rocks may well have shifted over time and Olphus was just a small child and could easily slip and slide down between them.

His wife turned out to be right. In the fading light and subsequent darkness of the previous evening, nobody had been able to see the child lying there, his legs hidden in the dark hole and his upper body wedged between the rocks. Olaf shouted. He ran back to the edge of the field and shouted again.

“He’s here! He’s here!”

The boy appeared to be dead.

Grimly, Olaf and the boy’s father set about the grisly task of removing the body from its trap. Several ribs seemed to be broken, and the child was unconscious, but he was alive. Barely alive, but alive. It was all Klara asked for at the moment. She laid out a pallet on the floor by the fire for him. She sank to her knees and sobbed.

The doctor had been in the village barely a fortnight and didn’t know the family.

“He’s very weak,” he announced finally after spending some time over the inert little body. He tried to smile reassuringly at Klara. “He needs to regain consciousness, and that could be days …….. and he cannot be fed till he regains consciousness, or he will choke”. He rubbed his hand over his forehead. He saw dead children all too frequently, and the boy would probably die. He had been outside in the wet for a long time, and he was injured in several places. It was a tragedy, especially so for this family. He had heard all about Klara’s dreadful losses, and apparently this child was very bright. Could have grown up to be something great. Lord only knew the world needed people who were bright …… “Keep him warm, speak to him, try to bring him round. And when he does, feed him only a little at a time, keep him still till you are certain that he has recovered.”

But it was obvious the boy would die.

He took some papers out of his briefcase and sat down at the table.

“OK,” he said, “I need some details for the case book.” He turned to Klara’s husband who sat down at the other side of the table. Klara ignored them and held her son’s chilly hand.

“ Your wife’s first name is Klara – correct ?”

“Yes.”

“And you are ….?”

“Alois.”

The doctor wrote this down next to the address.

“And the child’s name is ……… Olphus …….?”

“Nah – that’s my wife’s name for him. Stupid name. She wanted him called Adolphus, you see.”

“Ah – so what is his name ?”

“Adolph.”

The doctor wrote this down too.

“And his family name is the same as yours I take it …?”

“Yes. Hitler ”

THE END

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